I hope your festivities over Christmas have been happy, fun, stress free and very merry.... If they weren't and or you spent the holidays alone, just think of it as essentially an extended period of Sundays, well it used to be when shops were closed for 2 days at least. So it's not that special and the New Year will be better and bring a fresh start.
As years go, 2015 has been the most eventful one for me, I think, in my whole life.
Attending interviews for university
Planning and researching where to live
Attaining my maths
Accepting an offer to Northumbria Uni
A mini holiday, viewing and signing a tenancy on a flat
Packing up and saying goodbye to my old life in Kent
Starting my new life in the Newcastle upon Tyne
Starting uni life and being challenged out of my comfort zone weekly (group and solo presentations, speaking within large groups of people I didn't know)
Beginnings of new friendships (ones I can see being very long term)
Going on a placement (which I enjoyed so much that I'm going to volunteer with them) and then being asked whether I wanted to apply for a new full time position at said placement
I have even tentatively put myself out there and been on my first date since my late 20s. (It was a enjoyable and relaxing date and intellectually we got on great, but it was a non starter as far as any romance goes). A nice way to get me back on the horse so to speak.
I turned 40 a week ago, something I honestly never envisaged through my dark days of agoraphobia and depression, well I never thought I'd have done any of this either. For the first time since my my pre teen years I can say that I am really happy and excited for the next 12 months and beyond. I did have a bit of a dip of loneliness and depression and feeling lost in late October to early November, but that was just a small dip, and nothing like my old pattern of being down, particularly at this time of year.
For anyone who is going through tough times all I can say is that you are stronger and far more resilient than you realise, I know this because you are still here in this world. Keep going, try different strategies and get as much help and support from where ever and from anyone you can, because you can make it out to the other side. I am not saying it's easy, hell it took me over 20 years with lots of going a little bit forwards and then backwards, sometimes further, but you can do it, happiness know matter how or big small is in sight,
I am excited and ready to accept new opportunities and challenges that come my way, so bring on the New Year.
May your 2016 be the start of better things, be more awesome than 2015 and be filled with happiness, fun and a little exhilaration.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!